Friday, December 19, 2014

11:11

A few months back I started seeing the number 11:11. Which, according to Doreen Virtue means That there are miracles all around us and that we are headed down the right path we just need to look for the signs. Well, that is the jist of what it means. I had never seen this number or this time as much as I have these last few months in my entire life. At the time when I first saw it there were so many changes going on in my life. I was moving or looking for a place to move. And some other things were going on as well. It was a trying time for me to say the least.

But, when I kept seeing the number 11:11 I knew it meant that I just needed to follow my inner guidance. It has led me to some great alternative therapies for my anxiety as well as my physical pain and health issues. Which, have been helping me tremendously. Mentioned in a previous blog post if anyone is interested.

I also picked up the book I owned The Hip Chick's Guide to Macrobiotics by Jessica Porter. I owned this book for years. I read it and loved it. I even tried to go macrobiotic and vegan before but at the time it was too hard for me to stick to. I also finally got the book  Crazy sexy Diet by Kris Carr. Her story is so inspiring how she battled her cancer. Although she still has it she is much healthier then she was and it is now something that she can live with. When you finally get at your wits end with your health issues sometimes it makes you realize all the changes you need to make. I completely believe in the whole mind-body-spirit connection.



So, I am finally embarking on a vegan way of life. I finally feel ready. I am at least going to cleanse my body for 40 days. In Crazy sexy diet she says 21 but I am going to do a few more days if I think I can handle it. Then after that I will allow myself to cheat on my vegan way of life once or twice a month. I will allow myself to eat "junkier" vegan foods once a week. Because sometimes a girl still has to eat ice cream and chocolate.

I have been doing this for 5 days now. My body is not happy about it. But, I know in the long run I will feel so much better. The hardest thing for me to give up was not food but coffee. I have limited myself to one cup a day and it has felt like torture. And sometimes I seriously crave a soda. But, I know this cleanse will be good for my body, soul, and mind.


A vegan Macrobiotic Taco/Burrito I made. It actually turned out delicious. My mom even tried it and liked it. The Recipe is in The Hip chicks Guide to Macrobiotics by Jessica Porter. 













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Thursday, December 4, 2014

Serendipity

I realized it's been a month since I blogged. I think I completely missed November. Thank you to those who sent me messages asking if I was okay. I'm fine and I am not quitting my blog. And I was not abducted by aliens. Life lately has just been very busy and filled with many new changes.

 I welcome the change but it also makes me anxiety level go up. However, I have also been working on my anxiety/gallbladder/and body pain issues. I have come a long way in just one month.

 It started at the beginning of the month when I got my first Reiki healing treatment. I had heard of it and the health food store I go to was now offering it. I thought it couldn't hurt to at least try it. I never imagined how much it would help me. I felt an immense sense of peace and felt like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders.

 Shortly after I decided to get back to my yoga and meditation practice. I had kept putting it off but I remembered how it really helps my stress and anxiety.



Even though I don't do my practice everyday I have been trying to keep it consistent. It helps immensely when I have anxiety or when I've had a really stressful day and I can go to my mat instead of  complaining or holding all the stress in. I also started doing affirmations again before bed. It really helps me to focus on what I want to bring in my life instead of focusing on what is stressing me out or what I don't want in my life. 

I also started working on my books again. I have wanted to start these books for a long time now. But, kept putting it off. I decided I would no longer put my books and writing off and it has been very therapeutic for me. They are just at their infancy and I have a long way to go but they say getting started can be the hardest part. My goal is to have them finished by next year and then start the publishing process. If anyone has any tips on that I would love to hear them. 



The holidays are an incredibly busy time for me working in retail. We spent November getting all the Christmas stuff out and decorating. That took almost a month and it is still not completely finished. I also am helping out another retail store doing something I have wanted to do for a very long time. I have wanted to work in the natural health field for a while now and am excited to be helping throughout the holidays. But, I also know this will keep me extra busy. 


ser·en·dip·i·ty
ˌserənˈdipədē/
noun
  1. the occurrence and development of events by chance in a happy or beneficial way.






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Monday, October 27, 2014

Weekend Recap: Fish tacos and a Pup

I haven't done one of these in awhile. But, it was actually a pretty good weekend.

I first heard about Fish Tacos and how awesome they were from Juliette at The Other Juliette



I think she said they were addictive. They are! If you haven't tried Fish Tacos you have to. Now I want to eat these everyday. 




And I got to spend the weekend with Theo. He is a Cockapoo. They are quickly climbing to the top of my favorite small dog list. I mean look at that face. 

The rest of the weekend was spent working which went very well and yesterday was laundry day. Not too exciting. But, boy was it busy in the laundry room. And I got to meet some of my neighbors. 





Ollie was so tired he never made it to the bed. So he settled for sleeping next to the bed. I guess he had a busy weekend as well. 


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A letter to My younger Self



To my 21 year old self,

You have your whole world and life ahead of you. These next few years will be rough. You will feel like it is the end of the world. But, I assure you that it is not. You will go through a lot of change and loss. You will find out who you are. You will figure out who you want to be. You will change because let's face it we never stay the same. You will grow up and learn how to be a grown up. You have always been responsible and you will stay responsible. But, still you need to act a little wild now and then. You will slowly come out of your shell. 

To my 27 year old self,

You are almost 30 now. Remember when you bungee jumped? yes you need to do more of that. Don't worry so much about what other people will think and just follow your heart. You are starting to follow your dreams and have done things you didn't think you would or could do. But, you stepped out of your anxiety and took a chance. Now, take more. No, things won't always work out. You will be let down. But, don't let it get you down. Just learn from it and move on. The future awaits. 




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Sunday, October 26, 2014

I'm officially Moved

It's officially over. I have moved into my new apartment. I was originally going to call this post my new apartment and add pictures. But, that will have to be saved for another post. Right now I still have boxes all over the place and barely any furniture. My room is almost done except for getting my office/makeup corner done.

I can't believe it has been a little over a week since I moved. Last Thursday I had to get up at 6:30 in the morning. I wanted to have everything packed and had been staying up till 2-3AM most nights trying to get everything packed. Finally I just decided I would pack up the most important things and leave the rest behind. Honestly, I am living a much smaller space so I knew I had to let go of a lot of things.

I got up in the morning and scrambled to pack up a few more things. Ollie was "helping" me.


Then we had to grab the cats and take them over to my aunt's house. That was a chore in itself and I was exhausted just from catching them. 

My uncle came with the truck and of course we got so busy I never took an official moving picture. By the end of the day I was exhausted. 

But, my day was not over. I still had to go get the cats and they were not happy at all. They have seemed to settle down now though. They are still looking for the porch though. Ollie likes his new cat tree. 



The first night I stayed here it was strange. It felt like I was staying over at someone else's house. You know that I'm happy to be here but I'm still uncomfortable feeling. I don't think it will truly feel like my own place until the boxes are unpacked. And that can be a chore in itself. But, it is slowly coming along. And I forgot what it was like to live in an apartment with neighbors so close. It is crazy busy here on Saturday night's. I actually don't mind it will just take some readjusting to get used to living in an apartment again. 



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Friday, October 17, 2014

Things I'm an Expert At





Taking Pictures of my cats and then posting the pictures on Instagram





Eating leftovers. Because sometimes a girl just doesn't have time to cook.

Shoving things into the closet. And Drawers.

Drinking Coffee.

Thinking of something funny once the conversation is over.

Facebook Stalking. How else am I going to keep up with my family and friends.

Procrastination.

Watching Reality TV and Detective shows.


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Wednesday, October 15, 2014

What If You Fly?




Darling, What if you fly?

This is something I've been asking myself lately. I am always in my shell and am afraid of making changes. I'm afraid of falling. But, when I saw this quote it reminded me of my life these last few months. It can be hard to take a chance and even attempting to make a change can be scary. 

But, my life has been filled with change lately. I am supposed to be packing but I knew I had to share my favorite quote. Tomorrow I move into my new apartment. Last night I was sorting through papers. Old cards and letters. 10 years worth. Because yes I keep all that stuff. Letters and cards from my ex.   I thought I would be more emotional. Yes, I shed a few tears. I mourned the plans we made. But, then I threw the letters away and felt relief. I know in my heart it is time to let go. This person still is in my life. We are friends. 

I was watching Super Soul Sunday with Elizabeth Gilbert. She explained why you can't always stay with your soul mate. They are a reflection of who you are. They mirror all your negative qualities back to you. Which, is exactly what this relationship taught me. I met him when I was 15. I grew up with him. But, we are better as friends. I've been alone the last four years. Which, has been odd since I haven't been on my own since I was 15. 

A few months ago something happened. I felt like I lost an opportunity. It made me literally take stock of my whole life. What was I missing because I was afraid of falling. Sometimes we get chances and we miss them because we are afraid. I've been afraid of falling most of my life. Afraid of what people might think. Afraid I would make a mistake. But, I really can't say I regret anything I've done. It has taught me so many wonderful lessons. The only thing I can say I regret is not taking more chances. 

With this move I get a fresh start. I am not moving too far but I can shed a lot of the past and start anew. I can take stock of the things not just physically that I want to keep but emotionally and spiritually as well. And what I can finally shed. 


I am Ready to Fly.....



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Monday, October 13, 2014

The Best Advice I've Been Given


I Met this Woman probably a year ago. I meet a lot of people in my line of work. I work in Retail. People seem to like to open up to me because I'm always hearing stories about peoples lives. Sometimes I feel like a therapist. But, I really don't mind listening. Actually it makes me open my heart to these people and I always try to take some sort of lesson from a person's experience. 

This lady had explained to me how she had always wanted to go to Africa. It was her lifelong dream to go. And how she always wanted to start a tiger rescue in Africa. She told me how one day she found a plaque that had the exact spot in Africa that she wants to go written on it. So she bought the plaque. She believed as I do that there is so such thing as coincidences. She said you need to follow your dreams no matter how long it takes. Going to Africa was something she had on her heart for at least 20 years and even though it seemed impossible she said she wasn't going to give up. 

It reminded me that there are always signs. You can call it fate, serendipity, or kismet. There are many names for it. Over the years I've learned that there are no accidents. And if you look closely you will see signs. 

Sometimes when I am doubting a dream or questioning something fate will knock me on the head and I'll get a sign. Like you think about someone and suddenly you see them or they call you out of the blue. I think this is more then a coincidence. 

I've noticed Serendipity a lot in my life lately. Recently I was feeling discouraged about moving. I had looked at so many places and one place I really wanted fell through. But, I kept looking and then it was fate. I have three days left and I'm moving into my new apartment. There is still so much to do and I'm not going to lie I'm kind of freaking out. 

It is so difficult trying to figure out what you want to take with you. I'm afraid I'll leave something behind. Change is necessary and good. It is actually much needed. But, even good change can be scary. I'm leaving a house I've lived in for the last 10 years of my life. It holds a lot of memories both good and not so good. 

I'm excited for change and for what my future holds. I know fate has a funny way of making things work out for the best. As they say "when one door closes, another one opens." 

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I Never Thought Blogging Would...


I never thought blogging would....


Allow me to meet so many wonderful people. People that I can truly call my friends. I love how people feel the need to check up on people and see how you are doing. Especially if you haven't blogged for awhile. People genuinely care about one another. I like reading blogs just to see how people are doing. 

Make me want to take so many photographs. I can't always take pictures as much as I would like to. But, I genuinely enjoy taking photographs and sharing them on my blog.  One of the reasons I started a blog was to have an option besides Facebook and Instagram to share my photos. 



Makes me want to do more things. I admit that I can live in a hermit hole and having a blog has really made me want to try new things and get out of my shell more. I am still working on it but hey, it's a first step right? Just the act of sharing my life makes me a little less shy and gives me more confidence. 

People actually care what I write. Yes, I started the blog for myself. But, I'm grateful to everyone who actually takes the time to read my blog. And those who leave comments just know that I always read them and they mean the world to me. 




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A Letter to Myself in 10 years


I saw this prompt for #Blogtober and I knew I had to do this. This is actually something I have written on My Bucket List. To Write a letter to yourself 10 years from now and then reread the letter in 10 years. 

Dear 37 Year old Christina,
How is life treating you? I hope you are doing better then you did in your 20's. I know those were some rough years with a lot of ups and downs. You never know what life is going to throw your way. And you've got thrown a lot of curve balls. But, in the end I know it made you a stronger better person. 

Do you have your dream job yet? I know how much you want to write and be a makeup artist. If blogging still exists are you still doing that? 

Did you ever move to California or Louisiana? two places you've talked about and have wanted to move to for a very long time now. 

Did you get married? 

I hope you finally took the plunge and dyed your hair purple. Did you finally come out of your shell and take more chances? I hope so because you still have a lot of living to do. You have a lot of things on that good old Bucket list to cross off. 

How is Ollie? He would be 10 years old. Still spunky as ever I hope.  

I hope life is treating you well. I hope you have your life together. Not that your life is currently un-together but I know it is not your dream life. I hope you are doing something fun and artistic as a career. And making a semi-descent living. Not having to live paycheck to paycheck and worrying about paying your bills. 

I hope you are still chasing your dreams and trying to live your life to the fullest. I know it is not always easy. But, you are a very strong person. We got that from our grandma. 





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Wednesday, October 8, 2014

In memory of my grandma



Happy Birthday to my Beautiful Grandma. You are thought about and loved daily but especially today on your Birthday. RIP. <3 


My grandma died two years ago in early December. She was in her 80's. She was a beautiful, vibrant, strong, and at times fiery woman. She had auburn hair and hazel eyes. She was born in Ohio with a stay at home mom my great-grandmother who was affectionately called Noni. And my great-grandfather who I never got the chance to know as he died not too long after I was born. My grandmother was a ballerina. She loved to dance, act, and sing. She was one of the most talented people I have ever known.


 She raised two daughters by herself. She didn't always put her children first but really there is no perfect parent. She did the best she could at the time. She had many odd jobs and even worked as a weather girl. She acted in plays and danced on Broadway. She even posed for a couple of magazines as a model. When she was in her late teens she ran off to New York. She stayed there for one year living the life she had dreamed of. But, it was not meant to be as someone broke into her apartment. After that she sunk into a depression and had an almost nervous breakdown. She packed her bags and went back home.

 She soon got married and had my aunt then divorced. Then married and had my mom and then divorced. I realize now just how strong she was. I think that is where I get my strength from. She lived her life to the fullest.

 When she was in her 60's she got uteran cancer. She had to get a hysterectomy and got radiation treatments. I remember after she had her surgery and I went to visit her. I was just a kid and was very scared and not totally realizing what was going on with her. But, being the strong woman she is she beat the cancer.

 Then in her 80's she was diagnosed with stage 4 vulva cancer. She had the surgery and it didn't go so well. there was more cancer then they thought. After the surgery she got a bad infection. I was the one who noticed it. We promptly called the paramedics. The doctors said I probably saved her life. They gave her a few rounds of antibiotics and she ended up in a rehab facility for about a month recovering.

 She was healthy although not fully herself when the cancer spread again with a vengeance this time. There was no surgery at this point they had taken out all they could. Now it was radiation treatment. They said it would probably only extend her life another few months. But, my grandma wanted to try. She wanted to live for as long as possible. As long as she could still function she wanted to fight. The American Cancer Society helped us to get her to her cancer treatments. They paid for the cab ride there and back. Some of the cab drivers even waited until her treatments where done. It meant a lot to us since my mom and me don't drive.

 The doctors where right. The cancer dissipated but did not disappear. A few months later me and my mom realized we could not take care of her. One day we had been gone for the day and came home to her on the floor. She had fallen out of bed and couldn't get back up. We where terrified. She was okay but we decided it was time for her to go to hospice. this was not ideal but for us it was something we felt had to be done. She was also in constant pain and her prescription pain pills where no longer helping.

 We stayed with her that week as the nurses gave her morphine. lots and lots of morphine. She was in and out of conciseness the whole time. But, we tried to talk to her as much as possible and hold her hand. I do think she heard us when we spoke to her. We told her it was okay for her to go. She could leave this world. I think she was finally ready.

 She passed away early December around 1:30 in the morning. I remember because ironically I had just woken up and couldn't go back to sleep. I wonder if this was her spirit nudging me saying goodbye. After that me and my mom both thought we could hear her calling us. Maybe it was grief but, I don't think it was. Another thing that happened was one day the radio turned on by itself. It was not a dial tone it was a push button. Where it actually had to be switched to on. That had never happened before with that radio and it has not happened since.

 After my grandma passed away I was severely depressed. I was also dealing with other things in my life at that time as well. For a while I had kind of gave up on believing anything. I felt like I was in my own little bubble and the sadness was taking over. Not to long after that I started reading everything I could get my hands on about the after life. I started watching the medium shows. I have to say it gives me comfort. I know she is in a better place and a place she needs to be. I know she still looks out for me and my mom. I know her spirit is still around and when we die we don't get sucked up into some void of nothingness. At least this is my personal belief. Sometimes I think I feel her and sometimes I feel like she is gone. I keep a picture of her. I look at it for comfort. I celebrate her birthday with her favorite things. She is gone but she will never be forgotten.



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Monday, October 6, 2014

10 Things I'd Tell myself when I first Started Blogging

I am on my 6th month Anniversary of blogging. Time flies when you are having fun. This is actually my second blog. My first blog was really an outlet for everything I was going through at the time. I had that blog for quite a few years. I thought I would have it forever. But, people change and I knew I had to let go of that blog. Because the girl who wrote it was not the woman that I am today. 6 months ago I started this blog. I want it to be a reflection of who I am. I also decided I wanted to keep a log of my life. More then just on Facebook or Instagram. Honestly, my blog friends know more about me then most people in my real life do. Only a handful of people that I know actually know about my blog.


 1. That I am starting the blog for myself.   I do write my blog for myself. It was started and still is a place for me to write my thoughts and document my life.  It is nice to have an audience. I always try to write things that I think people will find funny or interesting.

 2.  I learned that pictures are very important. Also, the size of the pictures matter. And editing said pictures. Sometimes I get lazy and leave them the way they are.However,  I also love using picmonkey or editing pictures on my phone.

3. It takes a lot of time and effort to meet new people. You have to invest a lot of time and energy into getting to know people. Leaving comments are very important. Even if people do not leave comments back on your blog if you really want to get to know someone keep commenting. Follow them on social media. Show them you are interested in who they are and that you would like to become friends. In most cases people will follow you back and you might even become friends.

4. Blogging does not cost a lot of money. However, I learned it does cost some money. I invested in getting my domain. It was the best decision I ever made. I also paid for my layout. That was the second best decision I ever made with my blog. It didn't cost me a lot of money but the money it did cost was so worth it. If you can spend a little on a domain and make your blog looking the way you want it to you won't regret it.

5. Comments Don't matter. Sometimes I am still guilty of thinking this. Of course comments are not the most important thing. However, it is always nice to get comments and to know that people appreciate and like your blog.

6. Be yourself. Don't write solely what you think people will find entertaining. Don't try to be someone you are not just because you think it will get you more readers or comments. Eventually people will see through the facade and know you are not being authentic.

7. Other people have a more interesting life then me. I learned that in some cases yes this is true. People will always have something going on that makes their life seem more interesting. But, it's better to not constantly compare your life to other people. They say the grass always looks greener on the other side. I think this is true. We often see other peoples lives and think other people have a more exciting life then we do. Even if this is not always the case. You can always try to do more things to make your life more exciting. I am working on this since I don't find my life very interesting. One of my goals is to have more confidence and to try to get out of my shell more often.

8. proofread before hitting publish. I am guilty of just writing a post so fast I don't even think about any spelling or grammar errors. Then I read my blog post after I hastily hit publish and see my mistakes. So I quickly edit and pray no one saw the mistakes.

9. Make sure you are not a no-reply blogger. When I started blogging again I never even knew this was a thing. Until someone (Amanda) pointed this out to me. Which, I am and will always be grateful for. I figured out how to fix it and now I am a reply blogger. Yay!! So, if you notice someone is a no-reply blogger tell them. They will be grateful. And go check out Amanda's Blog.

10. You don't have to constantly blog. I am learning to blog more. I'm guilty of just slacking off. I haven't taken weeks off from my blog. However, I think I did miss a week here and there. Last week I barely blogged at all. Yes, life get's in the way. And I do struggle still with coming up with new content for my blog. (which, is why I love these challenges.) But, then you get on a roll and it feels awesome. I also am able to occasionally schedule my posts. That makes me feel even more awesome. And most importantly don't give up. Building readers and making your blog exactly the way you want it takes time. But, at the end of the day it is so worth it.


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Fall Bucket List

I already have my lifetime Bucket list. But, there are so many things to tackle this fall. Of course, Fall is my favorite time of year. I love how the leaves change beautiful colors and the weather is crisp. Not too hot and no snow on the ground. I actually like snow minus the ice and freezing temps. I love pumpkin spice latte's, wearing my knit boots and my riding boots, and of course everything pumpkin. I love snuggling under a warm blanket and drinking hot cocoa.










My Fall Bucket List

1. Take a picture of a tree turning colors and post it on Instagram and my Blog

2. Get packed up and move. It's right around the corner now. 

3. Change my hair. I've been wanting to streak my hair purple for so long or go back to red hair. My hair needs a change. 

4. Wear my boots everyday. I've been wearing my knit boots but have yet to take out my riding boots. 

5. Bake a Sweet Potato pie. My Favorite. 

6. Buy a pumpkin. 

7. Get my nails done with a spooky design for Halloween

8. Eat a Caramel Apple. I haven't had one of these in ages. 







 
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Saturday, October 4, 2014

My Favorite Instagram


My Favorite Instagram photo is the one I posted of Oliver. Or Ollie for short. He is 1 years old and still a baby. Except for the fact that he is now huge and weighs at least 13 pounds. And he is still growing. I can only imagine how big he will be when he turns 2.


Don't worry I didn't torture him with a bow tie and glasses. I edited the picture and added the bow tie and glasses in later. I think he looks like such a smarty pants.

I take so many pictures of Ollie he could probably have his own Instagram account. But, I love showing him off.






If you want to Follow me on Instagram just go to the link. 

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