Wednesday, October 15, 2014

What If You Fly?




Darling, What if you fly?

This is something I've been asking myself lately. I am always in my shell and am afraid of making changes. I'm afraid of falling. But, when I saw this quote it reminded me of my life these last few months. It can be hard to take a chance and even attempting to make a change can be scary. 

But, my life has been filled with change lately. I am supposed to be packing but I knew I had to share my favorite quote. Tomorrow I move into my new apartment. Last night I was sorting through papers. Old cards and letters. 10 years worth. Because yes I keep all that stuff. Letters and cards from my ex.   I thought I would be more emotional. Yes, I shed a few tears. I mourned the plans we made. But, then I threw the letters away and felt relief. I know in my heart it is time to let go. This person still is in my life. We are friends. 

I was watching Super Soul Sunday with Elizabeth Gilbert. She explained why you can't always stay with your soul mate. They are a reflection of who you are. They mirror all your negative qualities back to you. Which, is exactly what this relationship taught me. I met him when I was 15. I grew up with him. But, we are better as friends. I've been alone the last four years. Which, has been odd since I haven't been on my own since I was 15. 

A few months ago something happened. I felt like I lost an opportunity. It made me literally take stock of my whole life. What was I missing because I was afraid of falling. Sometimes we get chances and we miss them because we are afraid. I've been afraid of falling most of my life. Afraid of what people might think. Afraid I would make a mistake. But, I really can't say I regret anything I've done. It has taught me so many wonderful lessons. The only thing I can say I regret is not taking more chances. 

With this move I get a fresh start. I am not moving too far but I can shed a lot of the past and start anew. I can take stock of the things not just physically that I want to keep but emotionally and spiritually as well. And what I can finally shed. 


I am Ready to Fly.....



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2 comments:

  1. Yay on new starts! Sometimes it is hard to throw away old letters but when the time is right, it is liberating! Congrats on moving to a new place even tho it is a pain to move it is a great opportunity to get rid of the old and bring in the new!

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  2. Christina, from what you and I have been going through this year - which has been similar, I believe a fresh start is one of the best things that could happen to you. Please take it and make the best of it. I am rooting for you!!!

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