Wednesday, October 26, 2016

How I got my Creative Spark Back


How I got my Creative Spark Back 



A Few months ago or should I say actually more like a year ago I felt my creative mojo just disappeared. Or maybe I never felt like I really had it in the first place. I was writing blog posts and working on my books and some days the inspiration would hit me like a jolt and some days I would wake up and be spinning not knowing what to write or say. Dare, I say it but I felt like my life was boring. Until it got not so boring but not in a good way. 

I'm not ready to go into all of that but let's just say my life has changed dramatically. No, I didn't pack my bags and move to India. Although doing something completely random did and still does cross my mind. And yes it still is on my Bucket list to go to India...Someday. 

But, I kept getting bouts of illness. Chronic pneumonia, colds, and flus. I knew it was a sign that my body was trying to tell me something. I was overworked and overstressed. My creative mojo was non existent. I had no motivation left. I had lost that spark for my blog, my spark for writing, my spark for creating, and really that spark that makes me...well me. 

But, did I ever really know who I was to begin with. I always tried to be the good girl and be what other people wanted me to be. I smiled but inside I felt miserable. Miserably emotionally, spiritually, and physically. I had tried to keep up with my Kundalini yoga practice and meditation. I was making so much progress but with chronic illness everything I loved and enjoyed doing slipped by me. And with it my creative mojo and spark. 

Eventually I ended up having to move out of my apartment. That's another story for another time when I'm ready to share. I saw my life go into a box. I had to put all my stuff in storage and stay with a relative. 

During this time I felt completely lost. Completely unspiritual. And completely unmotivated. I felt like everything that made me...me was taken away. And I didn't know how to get that back. 

I started going back to spiritual practices and creativity. It was a slow process. I started resting and finally got better. Once I was well I was more open and receptive to what the universe was bringing my way. It was baby steps not big leaps. All of a sudden synchronicity started coming my way again. Once I stopped trying to control and do and was just an empty vessel ready to receive. 

All of these spiritual conferences and webinars kept popping up into my inbox. Isn't the universe funny like that? For the first time in a long time I started investing in myself. I took time to wake up early and before bed would listen to these amazing powerful women speak. I felt my inner feminine reemerging. With it my spark and creativity was coming alive again. I was bursting with ideas. I knew I wanted to blog again but I decided to just invest in having my blog redone to begin with. I needed a change and so did my blog. I knew I wanted to write again and ideas flooded to me in my sleep. Books came my way like The Artists Way by Julia Cameron. I started my morning pages and journaling again. I knew I wanted to help other women gain confidence back in themselves as well. This blog post came to my mind and creative sphere. I started thinking about all the things that helps me to get my creative mojo back. I use these in no particular order and I don't claim to have a monopoly on all these practices. 

Music

Mantra and meditation Music especially. I love Kundalini yoga and the mantras always spark my creativity.  Tweet: Sometimes it's in the stillness of meditation or being carried away by a melody of music that we find our creative force our creative mojo. Sometimes I just want to listen to Beyonce and let my inner goddess reign through the music. Tweet: It's whatever your soul jives with that is right for you. 
Tweet:  It's whatever your soul jives with that is right for you.
Some of my Favorite mantras are: Wah Yantee a powerful Kundalini yoga meditation/mantra for creativity and intuition. Sometimes we get stuck and stagnant. I felt like I had completely lost my inner voice. I found myself numbing out with TV and the internet instead of taking time for myself. Don't get me wrong I'm human and can get swept up in modern technology. But, Sometimes we need to disconnect and find our own voice. Tweet: sometimes we need to disconnect and find our own voice. This is a perfect mantra for listening to your heart and getting out of your head.

One of my Favorite versions is from Snatam Kaur. She has a beautiful voice.
Wah yantee kar yantee, jag dut patee,
aadak it waha, brahmaday trayshaa guroo, it wahay guroo

The Translation is Great Macroself, Creative Self. All that is creative through time, all that is the Great One. Three aspects of God: Brahma, Vishnu, Mahesh. That is Wahe Guru.

From http://www.spiritvoyage.com/blog/index.php/mantra-for-intuition-wah-yantee/

My second favorite kundalini mantra is Aud Gureh Nameh 

This is a mantra for protection to be chanted 3X.  My favorite version is from jai-Jagdeesh. 

Aad Gureh Nameh, Jugaad Guray Nameh, Sat Guray Nameh, Siri Guroo Dayvay Nameh

Translation:
I bow to the primal Guru
I bow to the truth that has existed throughout the ages
I bow to True Wisdom
I bow to the Great Divine Wisdom



When you cannot be protected, this mantra shall protect you. When things stop, and won’t move, this makes them move in your direction. - Yogi Bhajan

From http://www.spiritvoyage.com/mantra/Aad-Gureh-Nameh/MAN-000020.aspx

Since I've been chanting this and when I chant it I feel such a sense of peace. I feel like I've been protected from things these past few months since I started chanting this mantra.

You can put some positive uplifting music on. I'm really diggin' listening to Rise from Katy Perry, Road Less Traveled by Lauren Alaina, and When the crazy kicks in by Francesca Battsistelli.



Move Ya Body



Sometimes you need to just get up and take a dance break. Move ya body when you are feeling down. Moving your body helps to elevate your happy serotonin levels. Even moving for 5-10 minutes can help a lot.

I love doing yoga for moving my body. Or learn to Bellydance. (That's on my Bucket list)  Or you can go hug a puppy if you can't exercise. (Insert cute puppy emoji)

I love spending time with my kitties. They always brighten my day. (insert cute photo of fur babies)




Meditation


Sometimes we just need quiet. I love getting up early in the morning in the stillness and doing my morning pages. 

The Artist's way has really kicked my butt in getting back to journaling and writing. One morning I woke up early after a trying week and wrote down about my life at 70. It brought me to tears. Because I could clearly see my future. My goals and dreams all wrapped up. 

Exercise: Get out your journal and write about your life when you are 60, 70, or 80. If you are in your 60's, 70's or 80's then props to you. 

I also started Let it Out by Katie Dalebout. She is an inspiration to me. Someone who always wanted to write but finally went after her dream. And it paid off in an unexpected way. 

Tweet: 
Go After your Dreams you never know when or how they will pay off




Sometimes, I will just sit and look at my vision board. I actually have three of them. I highly encourage you to make one if you haven't already. 

Sometimes I will just sit on my yoga mat and sing mantras as my meditation. 

Who says meditation has to be boring? 

But, something always comes up to inspire me when I listen to music, move my body, or just sit in stillness. 











2 comments:

  1. I'm so glad you found your creativity again! I know what it feels like to go through dry patches, it's no fun. Have you read "Big Magic" by Liz Gilbert? I highly recommend it. It's all about the magic of leading a creative life, and it's so inspiring and full of contagious joy.
    I'm so happy for you for having found ways to deal with your health issues and anxiety! Yoga is wonderful for that. Enjoy your spark!

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    1. Thank you Miriam. Yes I've just started Reading Big Magic actually. I am enjoying. It is so inspiring. Yes I love yoga. It has helped me so much over the years.

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